It's not been often in my life where a situation,action or moment has made what seems like a primal scream from deep in my soul come forth so much so that my body shakes from the sound.
The first time I was in 8th grade and had final become part of the regular crowd, not the one they picked on. There was a new girl who had locks long before they became the in thing and bad acne to the point some bled. On one of the many days we went past her and comments where made and I laughed along seemed no different than any other but this time I looked her in the eyes and saw her pain and felt it like my own. Then the scream came and I stop in my steps and relized what I was becoming. I chose a different path in life that day.
I know there was another time but as of my writing this I can not remember clearly what it was.
That same scream came again yesterday bit this it was because of something a good friend told me that I shall not repeat. His words did not sink in right away. I had to read it again and as my eyes passed over his words it came.
For the life of me I could not grasp the words let alone the intent behind them. Normally I would just listen but I could not hold my peace and spoke my mind. I know I am being vague but I won't break confidence buy I have come to realize mind games let alone with the intention to hurt is my greatest pet peeve and that word does not even begin to cover the magnitude of how that makes me feel.
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