Wheel of Fortune and Death (Click title for meaning)
Tarot cards are viewed by some as a bad thing by others as a teller of fortunes and the future be is written in stone or ever changing and adjusted by the choices we make. The best and to me most accurate of what they do is take all the things you already know and have taken in but because of the "glasses" we choose to look threw can not see and put them in concrete form. A form that is harder to ignore and when you think about it is all we have really done be it intentional or not.
I have read for myself and others for me, always making sure that it was a new person who knew nothing about me though there where/ are two I go back to on occasion and there have been times I did not like what I heard. I did not like it cause it sometimes was a truth or a possibility I chose to ignore smacking me upside. In the head. In the past year there have been common factors coming up, I see them and acknowledge but still choose to ignore them. I usually ask a question but this time I asked what did they have to tell me. no question just put it out there.
As always that one thing I had ignored for so long came up. You can not move forward with out clearing away old problems or issues... That is what I had ignored all this time and I knew it. Since my Birthday last year when I decided to let go of the things that no longer served a purpose or was good for me I have moved past most of my fears and some that are not really fears but hesitations.What has this got to do with December? Not much except for:
Decisions
A year ago I was at a breaking point and decided ( there is that word again) that I would clean off all that was old and draining energy from me this year and I would figure out what it was and be done with it. I made a cleansing scrub which was a start because I felt some stress and negativity wash away. My locs where below my shoulder and had been cut before freeing me of old ways that hung on but this time I went and knew exactly where the old still hung on and had it cut to my chin. All that was old was gone and nothing but new growth was left. A hair cut may seem like nothing to most but when like me you can look and see each event and struggle pain and pleasure in the lengths of your locs and see them as more spiritual than style and looks it means a great deal.
I have adjusted and made changes in my life over the past year. I've looked in the mirror and seem my negative, positives, insecurities and strengths and have learned to make peace with many of them. Some still vex me but it is how we learn if we choose to learn at all. I have found a closer spiritual relationship with the creator. I have been told by friends they have seen me grow over the year and I am beginning to blossom and grow.
Now I have come to choices I have ignored and put off. Things I know must be done in order for me to continue growing. December when I look back and close out the year will not be easy but it will be the beginning to the next phase of my life......
